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The purpose of this blog is to serve as a public accountability for a personal project. I seek to uncover and more deeply understand the struggle and sacrifice of my aunt, Nordia Esther González Hidalgo, during the Nicaraguan Revolution. I will be sharing my readings, research and reflections. This is my story of how I found hers.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Struggling
I'm obviously struggling to keep up with this personal project of mine. It's quite frustrating that it just doesn't naturally fall into place. I promised myself I would at least post one entry in a month at the very minimum. Now I find myself on the last day of February without any progress. It saddens me to see how little I've done. What is the challenge? I just don't have the time, energy or focus? There are definite upswings in momentum but I need to harness that and maintain the flow. I'm tired of all these blog entries being about what I hope to do and nothing actually following through with any of it. I have acquired some DVDs and even an old VHS tape that I will eventually watch and take notes. When this will honestly happen, who knows? I have plenty of books I could be reading too. To be fair, it was a brutal month at work and it still continues to drain me. Behind a desk all day burns me out by the time I get home and usually don't want anything to do with a computer. I take the evening to rest. I guess all journey's have their ups and downs. I hope this is merely a hurdle along the path. I know I am truly interested in gaining a deeper understanding of my aunt's participation in the Nicaraguan revolution. I do like to imagine how I will retell and share her story with the world. I just hope I can get out of the dream and enter reality. It is time to wake up. The resting must end.
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